Wing Chun Time



This year is going to be exciting in martial arts. I've already been meeting with a personal trainer weekly for core training and now I finally feel better after having a cold and severe asthma for the past two weeks. I think I lost a good 5 lbs or something..looking like some twig on a dry winter's day. Thank goodness I had a real meal tonight of fish tacos and a nice cold Widmer to soothe the soul.

After a year of training for ultimate flexibility, qi energy development and technical form training, January marked the first day for me and Si Dai to train for pushing strength, aka power. But before we get into that, I have to make sure I have the right kicks.

The main reason I am training for martial arts is somewhat unknown to many. People usually think I do martial arts to defend myself, kick peoples butts, all your stereotypical expectations. There's actually a lot of reasons.
-It's the best way to learn something that could never be taken away from me
-More time spent with family learning something that takes a lot of patience and maturity
-Learning from others that share the passion
-Staying healthy from the refined standpoint of physics
-and the list goes on

I'm excited for more training and even more excited that my knees are surviving.

I'm also checking out the Wii Fit....But maybe that's on my wishlist for my bday :)

Countdown...

It's almost the end of 09' and there's so much going on!
I'm trying to get better at writing but here's what's going on with me lately
-catching up with a bunch of friends for the holidays
-cooking chicken soup as we speak (yumm...just a few more hours)
-waiting for my italian couch to come in so I don't have to sit on a bean bag while watching TV, looking like the old doby digital commercial
-collecting all the pictures and learnings from my Wing Chun practices...It's crazy, I can feel my skinny arms get buffer...it's strange considering I haven't done any lifting
-wondering what to make for new years eve for dinner..

In the meantime, friend's are priceless...only the best for my friends :D


tis the season

Back people, sorry it's been a crazy month with finals and Wing Chun training kicking my a@@. But on the brighter side, Christmas is around the corner...woot..I <3 it.

My recent fascination: Julie and Julia

Yes, maybe I'm just hungry, but more so I'm excited to cook with T which is always fun.

more to come..

flow

People always say that I go with the 'flow' or I get things done by doing nothing...or lead without leading...and that is absolutely my goal...I figure...

Why the hell should I work so hard to accomplish something?

Granted, there are hurdles,challenging obstacles...but I think it's important to know what exactly going with the 'flow' means.

1.) When I do something, I don't take anything personally. There's no need. When you isolate every situation and absorb every negative emotion people are dispersing (e.g. screaming at you because they had a bad day, a car cutting you off on the road..etc).. you end up weaker, less focused, one step farther away from being..well, happy and at peace.

2.) Not judging, or taking things personally, I've learned to accept. And to some, this may be a passive state. "Why the heck should I accept the situation when someone is being stupid?". That's like if you were dealing with an alcoholic. Who's crazy (figuratively speaking? The alcoholic who is doing exactly what they're suppose to do (e.g. being inconsistent, emotional, maybe even slur their words)? Or you, expecting him to be straight forward, focused, honest? You get the picture. Acceptance is a powerful way of living.

3.) Acceptance, is the ability to strengthen awareness. Awareness is an interesting concept. It is essentially something that is hard to articulate..It just is...and it is space from the noise in our environment..(e.g. media, interruptions from people, you name it). Awareness in my opinion creates discernment...the ability to make decisions based on intuition..where goodness prevails for everyone (trust me I was no angel but I've learned).

Ok gotta go to martial arts practice...I'll continue laterz.

Martial Arts and Diamonds



As promised. I'm terrible at writing and keeping a consistent log of everything and anything that's cool so I just store stuff in my nogan and jot here once in a while. So training is going well with my dad and Hubert. The recent lessons I learned included some very interesting points, specifically on Siu Nim Tuw (Little Idea) which is a form that consists of several simple movements that emphasize focus and building forward movement.

Some metaphors my dad shared with me the past few weeks include:
Wing Chun is like:

Diamonds - I complain sometimes about how boring the training is but understand true masters of anything take their time and practice hours on end. I heard once that in order to be a master at something, you'd have to spend a minimum of 2 hours a day for the next 10 years. I heard this was how Lang Lang, renowned pianist got to where he is now....ok back to diamonds....Dad explained to me how precious diamonds are in part for their ability to endure an extreme amount of pressure to create something precious, beautiful, strong, perfect...Similar to the training that we're doing now which is full of repetitive movements, pressure to technically master punches....and more.....the end result..a perfect martial artist....it's that simple...

Crab - The goal for the next two months include being entirely loose and flexible in my punches so that I can eventually create forward moving power. This is very difficult because you have to literally NOT think about trying to be relaxed and flexible. Teaching this is like teaching a crab to walk forward...if you observe a crab...it has a natural tendency to move side to side....now if you taught it to move forward, it would stop in it's tracks and shuffle back and forth before he could move forward...or even try...Remember when we were a baby? Probably not, but anyway, we would pick up toys, throw things, put Cherrios in our mouths with muscle...and we were trained to use our muscles and build muscles as we grew older....Imagine trying to 'unlearn' all that muscle memory to create something even more powerful....tendon power.

Kenpo - The ancient Japanese martial art of Kenpo required true masters to practices striking with a sword hundreds and even thousands of repetitions before they master just one stroke. Often this stroke was fatal...and now, not many have the patience nor endurance to go through such practice to reach that level of mastery....This is an example of true mastery.

What's amazing about all of this is that it's applicable to everything in life...but again...it's all about practicing and learning....falling on your face and only knowing how to move forward.


Here's a rare interview from a student and my dad's Sifu, Ho Kam Ming, training brother of Bruce Lee.

YEE JEE KIM YEUNG MA

Question: Does one use the Yee Jee Kim Yeung Ma as a fighting stance?

Master Ho: It is not necessary; use a natural fighting stance.



Question: What is the best way to check your stance to know the correct distance between your feet?

Master Ho: The stance is based on one's body height. A tall person has a wider stance; a shorter person's would be smaller.



Question: Why are the toes inward in our stance?

Master Ho: If your toes point inward, when you practice turning or changing angles--it is easier. If your toes point outward--turning is inhibited.



Question: Should the spine be held straight?

Master Ho: Generally, your spine has got to be straight. If not, when you turn you will swing your center out. If it is straight, when turning, everything is centered.



Question: When you practice the basic stance, are you developing energy by doing it?

Master Ho: The stance helps you to find your center of gravity. When you know how to feel your center then you know how to move your body. As for Internal energy--no matter what, if you are standing here, you already have Internal energy. When you raise your hand you also have Internal energy.



Question: What is the main purpose of Yee Jee Kim Yeung Ma?

Master Ho: The main purpose of Yee Jee Kim Yeung Ma is to practice your stance, to find your center of gravity and to balance yourself. When you have the ability to find the center, then when you fight, you can stand in any position. When an external force comes toward you, that is the time to use your balance--that's when your stance comes into place. If you can't control your balance, it doesn't matter how good your hands are; an external force coming in will knock you down.



Question: When you practice a long first form--say a half an hour or so--and you start to shake, does this mean you are weak or are you in the wrong position?

Master Ho: If you shake that means you can't find your center of gravity. You are using the wrong muscles.



Question: Is there any differences or improvements that you see in the forms since you have come to the United States?

Master Ho: The principles are the same but maybe the teaching methods are different. The foundation is the same but people teach differently.



Question: How significant is the knee position and is there natural tension somewhere alone that area? If you are tense, is that wrong?

Master Ho: If the muscles are tight then it is wrong. It should be natural, natural tension. Any motion, as long as it's natural is fine. Do not tighten up.



Question: A question about the hip--you don't lock the hip then?

Master Ho: The hip is not held inward and tight.. Just stabilize the hip and motion.



Question: About the center of gravity, usually this is indicated by a vertical plane. Is there a horizontal plane for the center of gravity and does it go down?

Master Ho: The vertical center of gravity should be straight in a vertical position. Whenever you move forward the whole vertical line should move as one unit.



Question: I notice that other systems seem to utilize wider stances. Can Wing Chun be practiced with a wider stance?

Master Ho: If your stance is too wide then you lose your flexibility to move. If it is too narrow then you can't move quick enough. The best position is your own natural position as based on Yee Jee Kim Yeung Ma. Wing Chun does not use a wide stance, you lose mobility with a wider stance.



Question: How wide should the stance be?

Master Ho: The width of the stance is based upon your shoulder width. Also, in this stance your weight should be evenly distributed.



Question: To move one must raise the stance, correct? Does one's height remain the same?

Master Ho: When moving don't bounce your stance. Keep the height even and try to stay stabilized.



Question: How do you know exactly how to sink the weight? For example, how far do you sink?

Master Ho: Sink to the point that you feel natural and flexible. Sink enough but don't sink too much.



Question: Could you explain a little about basic pyramids and how they relate to the stance?

Master Ho: The pyramid stance is based on balance. If an external force comes in, it is dissolved accordingly. However, that's just talking about the stance, when you use the hands--they should be utilized with the structure.



Question: About the weight distribution, if the weight is evenly distributed upon the feet and a burning sensation if felt on the bottom of the foot, how does this relate to the direct weight upon the heels?

Master Ho: The weight is distributed upon the whole foot. If you feel heat then that is a good sign for that means you have found your center of gravity. Later, that feeling will go away--that is, when you learn to control better. But that is a good start. Also, both feet should be equal; if you feel burning, then you should feel it equally on both feet.



Question: Does it matter if you practice with bare feet? Or is it better to practice with shoes on?

Master Ho: If you practice with bare feet you will feel your toes grab the ground better.



Question: Should you always practice a long first form?

Master Ho: It depends upon your energy level. If you feel bad that day, then you shouldn't do it too long. For example, if you try to study a book and you don't have the energy, it won't go to your mind well. Thus, it depends on your energy.



Question: So, unless your basic foundation or balance is good, anything you build on top of that is weak, correct?

Master Ho: Right.



Question: Is there a best time to practice Siu Lim Tau. For instance, before or after practice?

Master Ho: When you practice Siu Lim Tau, the best time is before you are tired. This way you can find your center easier.



Question: Again, about practicing barefooted, is it true then it is best to practice this way?

Master Ho: It doesn't matter. Practice many ways, for in a fight you will be wearing shoes. But bare feet are better.



Question: Do you ever sink your weight more for certain techniques?

Master Ho: Don't emphasize sinking all the time. Just try to dissolve the incoming force. You may have to brace or sink at that moment. But don't sink all the time.



Question: Could you elaborate on the natural curvature of the spine; as opposed to what was said about the spine being straight?

Master Ho: It should be natural, naturally straight.

Question: Yee Jee Kim Yeung Ma is not a fighting stance correct? What happens in a real fight, what stance do we use?

Master Ho: Yee Jee Kim Yeung Ma is the foundation of all stances. When you practice, you use this stance to develop balance. But when you fight for real, you use mobile stances.



Question: How does the shoulder relate to overall balance?

Master Ho: The shoulders should be straight down; pull them down equally. If your spine is straight then your shoulders will be down.


Every year for Halloween I usually wear an outfit that I make. For some reason, it just makes the costume unique and personalized. I just finished building part of it...guess what it is?

It's amazing what feathers, felt, electrical tape, panty hose (can't believe I tore up my favorite hose) and hangers can do..

Night Couture Photoshoot






So I just did a last minute (literally) night couture photo shoot with the most luxurious gowns and jewelery I've ever felt on my skin. My neck was draped with gleaming pearls and a shimmering slinky white gown that made me feel like Cinderella waiting to go to the Prince's ball.......I love the big tree in my backyard...the creases and texture gave the shoot some great character.....Here's a sneak peak...

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New! *Update*
YAYYYYY my videos up!!!..and guess what? 6 more voting days they decided to throw in for this round.....(ARG).....Everyone has been incredibly supportive and excited for me...so let's keep this up. I can't believe I've gotten such an awesome response so far...This is the first time I actually posted videos for the world to see.....All this goodness makes me feel like Christmas morning when you open your present from Grandma Agatha expecting a toy Tonka truck the size of cereal box toys but really get a Big Wheel equipped with streamers instead.

Special thanks to:
My lovely Teebs
Big Bro
The Trans
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Eugene Film Feenom aka pseudo cousin
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Mr. Rush himself and serious iPhone finger madness magic
And many many more....

annndd guess what..6 more days of voting till the Finals

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Semi Final Video

**Just added a new clip at the end with extras from my drive down a beautiful day in Santana Row.

Hello Helllooo...So here's my video (filmed at 11pm when I was pretty delirious) for the semis....I love my friends ha!

Project Runway Update



Thanks everyone for signing up and supporting me!

We have about 7 days of daily voting until the end of the semi finals and they choose the top 5 models (woohoo!)

The top 3 with the most votes and the top 2 wildcards will advance (I'm hoping for the wildcard).

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Have a great week and see you soon!!

Natalie

Project Runway: Models of the Runway Round 2

Hey everyone...I finallllllly have my videos up! yay...

It's my first time blasting the world through video but it was super fun (and tiring). I was scrambling to put up videos and make my bf do a bazillion (ok like a few) takes on taping my signature style and runway walk. It was about 11pm at night in his apartment complex and I swear the neighbors were going to murder me with the walking back and forth down the halls..I went for a tougher walk since my outfit was more structured....here goes..and don't forget to vote today :) Your votes are pushing me up to the top!

On a Sunday afternoon....



It's been a while since my last entry but I've been working on a bunch of shinanagans. I finally got my upholstered headboard (woohoo).. Yes yes, i was reminiscing to the good ol' days when my mattress was the prime dust, pollen, occasional penny collector, bed-frame-less and naked, sitting on the floor, waiting for a nice frame to hold it in place. Kinda like when you have a pair of pants that always wants to fall to the floor and its aching for a belt to hold it up.




On a more random and fun note, I decided two weeks ago to try out for Project Runways' Casting call


which basically is a competition to be a model on the show (yay Heidi Klum!). Originally I was invited by the show to sign up so I did. Low and behold, now I'm in the top 100 of all contestants and in the top 100 votes. Awesome. But there was a time when I was like "Oh, that's cool, now on to my real life"...Then I told myself..."Well why not, I'll just see if I can try it, do well, and have fun along the way"...so now, with one day left in the first round (75% of the highest votes will make it to round 2)...here I am...so VOTE FOR ME DAILY and live the dream with me day by day :)

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(ps. I just put up my FIRST online video for everyone to see.. it was fun :))


On an art note, I've been having some fun in my Digital Imaging class which works with Photoshop...editing, manipulating, composing images through PS. It's actually something I really like to do...so this weeks assignment called 'Pleasantville'..restoring a black and white image with color and selection tools. My That was practice...and my assignment is to revise my Hitchcockian terror composite photo 'The Octopus' ooooooooo...show you later :)

and a quote from the teacher...
Being an artist is hard, being creative is very hard, being creative when you're trying to be an artist is really hard

(seriously!)


Wing Chun is coming along...along with 3x3 basketball which is amazing...nothing feels better than to get some consistent workouts in these days. Wing Chun especially...It's the kind of art that teaches you patience and refinement...more to come...

Now sit back, and relax on this Sunday afternoon..

A punch is a punch

I've done some consistent training in the past few weeks and to be honest, it's probably been more than I have in 2 years. It's amazing when you get to learn from a master, let alone your own dad...I'm pretty happy about that. Even more interesting, is to be a master, you reach a level that transcends technical expertise. When you look at all the masters in the world, be it your coach or mentor, they seem to inspire, instruct and motivate with ease of their ability and insight. After they have reached the highest level, creativity starts to puff up...like the perfectly backed souffle...perfect.. Watch any master, the power, the finesse... for example..my father's punches or kicks all come with a very technical stance, method in which joints rotate, the power that has been generated from over 30 years of training...and he does it without much explanation...little thought...but of knowing.

Then suddenly in the middle of a lesson, more lessons and ideas come to mind...like how a stance in Wing Chun is low because it's like race cars competing in Nascar. The cars are build low to the ground and streamlined so they hug the floor and make turns sharply..and quickly..the creative thinking mimicked his representation of how to approach opponents by utilizing the floor and your body my maneuvering swiftly like a race car racing in a championship race.

Mastering Wing Chun seems to come from many things...but like it's core principal...the center is where it's at...the center is the power...


I always thought 'Che Koon' or doing the muscle memory, repetitious slow punches were just to train your arm and form. Now I understand it's to not only train those aspects, but to learn how to harness the power once you've developed it..then dispersing into to the world in the form of the punch.

Siu Nim Tau on the other hand, is practiced to develop the power. The slower you do it, the better you are...the more power and energy is generated....and power on the contrary, doesn't come from large muscles...it comes from a deeper place. It's like a bullet - Mass X Velocity equals Power. That's why the bullet at such a small mass but high velocity can puncture through the toughest material...can even kill someone. Or look at a locomotive, it's a huge piece of machinery moving at even a slow pace can severely damage whatever get's in it's way.

This is definitely something I"m working on for now and I'm gradually feeling more and more power each time I practice.

6 human needs finale

And back by popular demand (and practice hopefully) are the remaining 3 tenants of the 6 human needs.

1.) Love/Connection
2.) Certainty
3.) Significance
4.) Variety
5.) Contribution
6.) Growth

Nice guys finish last.

I always choose the fix-it cases

Why choose hamburgers when you have steak at home?

All yada yada yada talk. But why do we delve from the nice guy, the things that are functioning properly or the damn good fillet Mignon perfectly cooked to a medium rare with the tastiest grilled mushrooms on top?

Variety. It's this crazy dichotomy of needing human need #2:Certainy with a dash of the necessary #4. Variety. It's what keeps things exciting, get's our hearts and minds racing (in a good way)and sparks creativity. When the greatest artists or innovators brainstorm, they don't just think about the same ideas over and over again. They have a variety of ideas...wacky ones...far out...liquid nitrogen ice cream anyone? When a fashion designer creates a new line for the season, they don't just open the standard 'Fashion 101' book and design based on the standards...they bust out their tool box of magic and create evening, ready to wear, day time concepts. Then they pinpoint one an idea that works. The point is, variety gives us a refreshed perspective. How do you know you only like Italian food when you haven't tried Persian, Chinese, French, or indigenous food from the Sinhala people? The experience with variety creates certainty and openness a lot of other things can't. Sometimes that's why people get bored of things or need to 'shake things up' (whatever that means).

Contribution is #5 on our list. Why collaborate in a group? Why do I do what I do at work? What's the point of giving a homeless guy your unopened bottled water? (Ok ok I confess, I tried it a few times and something about it made sense and felt good). Contribution is a key factor in not only feeling significant, but truly doing good on an infinite scale. To do something big in life, you have to contribute...whether that's contributing 5 hours of silent time for yourself a week...or donating your earnings to charity. The spirit of giving breeds appreciation, gratitude and whatever it is you contribute, the more you are making a difference in the world. Sometimes people think they have nothing to contribute, which is an illusion because all things stem from incremental steps.

Finally, growth is the last human need. This is a huge one for me. My friends always make fun of me because I usually get myself in odd predicaments. They ask "Nat why do you love everyone?" or "How come you always have these meaningful conversations?" To me, constantly growing, having curiosity, learning new things, keeping my mind open has kept my mind fresh. Think of plant. If you stop watering a plant, it stops growing so what does it do? It dies. But it takes a variety of things for a plant to grow. From the richness of the soil to the purity of the water. I try to find areas that I can grow (spritually, mentally, physically) and the best part is, when you actually feel the growth...it trickles on to other people...the enthusiasm, sometimes the pitfalls...but mostly the lesson learned to move forward.


I didn't exactly what it took to create a truly fulfilling life and I could never pinpoint it until I encountered these points. I knew that balance was key in every aspect of my life, but doing so meant understanding myself first. People say you have to sacrifice for what you want and need but I say you have to reprioritize. Filter out everything that you DON't need and presto! The things you need are become so clear and appear right in front of your face. After much trial and error in dating, working, people befriending, family interacitons, or what have you....this list finally has it all...So try making your own list, rank them and see on a scale of 1-10 where your at. Remember, one change of the number in your scale can be like a phone number, a swap of a number can mean calling Hong Kong versus calling Bumblefudge Boontown. To give you an idea of where I'm at and to get you started...here it is and be honest with yourself (or it's not gonna work)!

scale from 1-10:
1.) Love/Connection:10
2.) Certainty:10
3.) Significance:8
4.) Variety:8
5.) Contribution:7
6.) Growth: 9


And a little piece of my childhood human need

Hong Kong, Reunions, Birthdays and Coconut M&Ms


Although my yearly trips to Hong Kong are usually about a week, I feel like I always get the bang for my buck since it's such a drastic change from what I'm use to. Last week's trip proved the same since I went for a family reunion and to celebrate my grandma's 81st birthday (huge in Chinese culture).

I couldn't stop thinking about the food, family interactions/challenges, the unbearable heat/humidity and the freezing - icicle-esque air conditioning units, not to mention the 7 million people littering the streets (FYI San Francisco has about 1 million peeps). Of course a metropolitan area couldn't be complete without tons of taxis, shopping, more shopping, street markets open at the crack of dawn...and did I mention more shopping?

The first day was about being up early and hanging out late. I was at HK around 6am and my parents came to get me at the airport which was cool. We spent most of the day checking out the territory including the morning markets with fresh fruits, veggies, and tofu in the outside market. Then had some of my favorite HK style milk tea (yum and RICH tasting...). Then we got ready to visit my dad's cousin in Hong Kong which turned out to be a huge fiesta in itself with hot pot galore and karaoke till 1am. zzzz. Dinner was not only fully equipped with hot pot, but also delicious sashimi..which of course including a semi twitching fish on a bed of ice...(I call that fresh and border line disturbing).


I stayed with my parents at a friend's apartment in Kowloon off Waterloo Road which was a nice change from your typical hotel. It was at a great location since it was close to the Kerrigans (Aunt/Uncle/cousins from Wisconsin) and even better since it was close to Grandma's place.


The second day was full of lounging around on a yacht at the Aberdeen Marina Club with my aunts and uncles for a few hours to see the sunset and eat dim sum. It was a cool time of watching my 6'2 uncle jump off a two story boat about 10 times and my little cousins swimming a good leg of a triathlon to the shores of the beaches to bring back shells and ocean glass.


My cousin Evan organized this entire Grandma birthday/Family reunion shindig which included 6 families and a handful of 'must-have' guests. Trust me, not an easy feat. We ended up having a Chinese banquet at the http://www.countryclub.hk/ which was amazing full of your family portraits, performances, food-food-and more food. Grandma even snuck in her bday wishes early by blowing out all the candles in a quickness before anyone even knew :). The best parts were the kids, the longetivity buns, but of course, grandma's bright smile since her family and friends (best friend of 40 years!) were all in attendance.


One of the best parts was taking a day trip to Macau and seeing the hotel where my grandpa raised my uncles. The Portuguese settled in Macau in the 16th Century and much of that influence is still seen in the region today.





Overall, it was a packed trip with tons of fun and great catching up with family.
Not to mention I stumbled upon a limited edition pack of coconut M&Ms :)

6 human needs #3



I feel incredibly fortunate to have found my soul mate, or rather we found each other. Of all the experiences I've had, the setbacks, the amazing moments, the lessons, key points...it all boiled down to how these 6 human needs interrelated with one another. I didn't know exactly how to articulate it before, I just 'felt' it...Yea, yea...not exactly your most scientific method, but I value intuition above many unperceived rationalizations. So to continue my list...#3 is the human need of significance.

1.) Love/Connection
2.) Certainty
3.) Significance
4.) ___________
5.) ___________
6.) ___________


Let's be honest, no matter what we do, there's an underlying need of feeling good about it. Whether it's serving pancakes during a breakfast soup kitchen or cooking food for your family or friends...it's that sense of feeling special, unique and needed that makes the entire experience fulfilling. Sometimes a simple "Thank you" is all that's needed to feel the significance. Now some approach this differently. They may want fame...money to grow on trees till the cows come home...people to like them...or always needing affirmation.. In my experience, true significance isn't receiving a lot of praise or catering to the mind made construction of how I need to feel significant. Rather, it's the awareness I bring to every situation and the genuine appreciation that is received from another human being. And that feeling you can differentiate if you really want to. If you're conscious.

Wing Chun: History



I did some extensive training this weekend and dug deeper with my Dad about the history of Wing Chun. Including some tv time watching 'How Bruce Lee Changed the World' on the History Channel. I'm starting to feel stronger in my one inch punches and flexible by relaxing the shoulder muscles more. I also tried some more moves on the wooden dummy this week..more to come on that I'm looking forward to my massage this week to loosen some stiff muscles! The story of Wing Chun was considered a secret according to history, therefore, versions may be slightly different. The key points remain:

-Wing Chun was developed by a woman, for a woman
-Ng Mui, the legendary Shaolin monk taught the beautiful Yim so she could defeat the man who was pursuing her. Because of the time limitations, she had to take 30 years of her Sholin martial arts knowledge and condense it into a economical method for Yim to learn as quickly as possible. She named it Wing Chun...
-Yim Wing Chun defeated the man and was free
-Bruce Lee learned Wing Chun before he created his own form of Jeet Kun Do


6 human needs #2


*not in any particular order but a certain order in my experience, tends to create a different outcome.

1.) Love/Connection
2.) Certainty
3.) ___________
4.) ___________
5.) ___________
6.) ___________

The second of these human needs is certainty. All of us want a sense of comfort, the certainty that our friends, family or doggie/kitty will always be there for us through thick and thin. It's true, I've found more people tend to emphasize on having certainty in everything rather than embracing change, which is inevitable in life. Certainty is a need because it creates ease. It's something we can count on and know that despite all negativity in the world around us, we can rely on that which is certain to put us at peace. To be certain, is to avoid pain...such as failing at something.

To me, clarity is brought forth through uncertainty.... it is a true test of my intuition and the choices I make. In uncertainty, there can be an outer purpose, often surface level reactions to a situation...or a deeper, intuitive inner purpose that comes to fruition..that often comes from your gut. It's like if you're caught in a bad family or work situation where there's no structure, no sense of understanding or a goal...you can react with negativity...asking "why is this happening" "I can't move forward from here"..or use the uncertainty as a gain...a way to grow "if I'm not sure about the the goals, I'll create one of my own".

I can honestly say my life is exceptional right now in every aspect because I set standards and valued balance in all areas. The uncertainty came in each area at different times and different magnitudes (e.g. loss of family members, not knowing if I am in the right relationships..etc). Certainty came in the way I chose to act upon situations, not how situations controlled my actions. And though there is still uncertainty in what's to come...it's a healthy acceptance that whatever comes, is an opportunity for growth...development....the feeling when you've waited all spring for the little lemon seed to grow and suddenly it bears fruit and lots of lemons...enough to make a nice cold pitcher of refreshing lemonade to share with the ones that provide comfort and certainty...


The more I see the less I know for sure.
John Lennon (1940-1980) British musician.

sketch: chinese opera




I finally picked up my extra smooth ebony pencil and mars plastic eraser to stretch my fingers and imagination. I keep thinking about things to draw, usually in a series so there's some meaning and cohesiveness to what I'm trying to visually communicate. I've found the most authentic type of artwork is always real, genuine, true to the artist and is perfect in its' imperfection. When it's perfect, it's the voice of a smooth jazz singer or the sweet taste of the perfect tarte de pommes.

I remember my mother and aunts grew up going to Chinese Opera productions in Hong Kong. They were so excited by the marvel of costumes, vibrant characters and stories told through a series of thought through segments. As little girls, they often pretended they were the characters of the opera and wore pearl necklaces and painted their faces with joy.

This sketch is helping me create the final version...hopefully I'll chat with my mom more to get more inspiration :)

6 human needs



I'm always fascinated by human behavior and why people do what they do. I finally understand in a holistic manner what it take -- other than having 'chemisty', 'the spark' or 'follow-through'. I've experienced interesting relationships (fam, friends, boys) with different types of people because of this curiosity to grow and learn and I finally think I'm almost there...

Anyway, what I'm saying is...there are six key things that I've tried to fulfill (without even knowing until now) that has made my current relationships be it family, friends or boyfriend, as strong as ever.

Here they are:

1.) Love/Connection
2.) ___________
3.) ___________
4.) ___________
5.) ___________
6.) ___________


You thought I was just gonna list em? I will, just not right now...but I start off with the one that I value most and believe-- Love and connection. But to understand what that even means requires awareness and competency from concept to practice. It's not like the 'I luv ya' type love notes you find on your 2nd grade Garfield valentine from Johnny (although I use to love those Snoopy and Garfield V-day cards)...It's the rare unconditional kind..

The 'Power of Now' by Eckhart Tolle (p124) describes it best:

"true love, which has no opposite because it arises from beyond mind. Love as a continuous state is as yet very rare..."

When you truly love someone you remove the neediness, the clinging quality that creates the illusion of passion and aliveness..it rather reveals a tendency of dysfunction, addiction and what society can label as 'love', 'being in love' or even 'romantic'.

Being connected with someone is having some kind of common interest, be it rock climbing, computers, or swapping tips on cycling. Curiosity and learning helped me build connection between people..